the power of your story

i cannot explain the emotional schizophrenia of anger, pride, and hope, as i watched “freedom summer” on amazon prime. listening to fannie lou hamer tell her story, one chapter in a library of injustices black citizens endured in the jim crow south, my eyes burned and salty tears rolled down my cheeks. when she was […]

a walk through history

my mind has been awash with ideas, concepts, thoughts, all jangling around in my head like so much loose change. i switch from thinking about the civil rights movement that reached its apex in the 60s to going back to the 40s and recalling ww2 and america’s delayed reaction until they were forced to join […]

i can’t breathe

“mama said there’d be days like this there’d be days like this mama said” today reminds me of the day after the ferguson decision. when white cops were once again absolved of murdering yet another unarmed black man. this is not a debate about the guilt or innocence of michael brown (accosted by police and […]

bikini wax 101

in prep for my trip to belize in celebration of HBD2ME, i decided, to hell with shaving, i’ll get myself a bikini wax. i asked a colleague for a recommendation and she shared her preferred studio. i had done some research and the menu was extensive. full brazillian, landing strip, butt strip, on and on. […]

no limits

lately the phrase, “no limits,” has been ringing in my head. i mentioned it to a friend and shortly thereafter i stumbled upon a message by the same title. in it pastor gordon banks said, there is no limit to what we can do in CHRIST. JESUS is the pin to our bank account and […]

mental health matters

this past february i reached out to a therapist. i did a google search, scrolled past a few faces and her smile, name, and afro spoke to me. i emailed her and told her i realized i need help and she told me that was a big first step and that i could call to […]

believe them

after watching bird box, an odd film on netflix, a male friend of mine messaged me and said, i can easily see you naming your kids boy and girl so as to not get too attached. radio silence. i was taken aback at his declaration of fact and fired back, when i am insulted i […]

where is your faith?

the bible says, “the enemy comes to steal, kill, and destroy.” i’ve always thought of that scripture in terms of the tangible: finances, relationships, job, but it came to me so clearly that the devil has stolen bits of my faith with each passing year of dreams deferred. i was never much of a believer […]

surely i will

this is a shitty end to 2018. my mentor and sister-girlfriend lost her battle with cancer in october. a woman i referred to as grandmother had a heart attack and passed away in november. i last saw her a few summers ago, my dad snapping a photo of us in her living room as she […]

renew your mind

i tore my house apart this morning searching for a notebook. i have scribblings all over the place. journals, scraps of paper with phrases, passwords jotted on post-it notes. i panicked because i couldn’t find the notebook. where the fuck did i put it? what else is in it? i spent at least an hour […]