color me badd

i am convinced that white women are hyper-sexualized. they like to talk bout it, be sexy (or try to be), find otu what you do or think about it, write about it. they are obsessed with sex, sexuality, beauty, and weight. during the lecture this morning, my instructor was on the panel and the topic […]

gluten-free

i don’t know the first thing about being “gluten-free.” fat free, sugar free, calorie free, yes, but gluten? we’re at dinner and i overhear one of the ladies say, “oh, she didn’t join us because she’s gluten-free. she has to prepare her own meals.” another other lady says, “so am i.  i manage to find […]

out of towner

what i look like here is NOT what i look like in real life. here i look like a camper. shapeless tops, mid-thigh and knee-length shorts, with silver and blue Asics that almost never match my outfit. i would be arrested immediately by stacey and clinton. and in truth, by myself. to see me, walking […]

cracking coconuts

is everyone thin? shapeless? skinny is one thing, lean even, but shapeless sticks gliding past like stilt-walkers? only one person had shape and i envied her. thighs that could crack coconuts. reminded me of the chick from boxing years ago. what was her name? white chick. another one. jesus. they’re everywhere, like ants at a […]

observations

while sitting in today’s 11th hour lecture, i found myself distracted so i began to jot down my thoughts on what i’ve seen and experienced during this week’s writing workshop. i should be reading the tomes from my fellow classmates but instead i’m sitting here transferring the days thoughts to my trusty blog. pretentious, esoteric, […]

it was like fire

the first of what will be four appointments is now complete. i don’t have the courage to look at his work. as i left his office i wondered, how do women who have endured mastectomies, even double mastectomies, look at themselves after. how do they handle the scarring, the change in how their breasts look? […]

does anyone fear white men?

in the wake of the trayvon martin murder, a recent guest on an npr broadcast reflected on president obama’s reaction to the murder. he then shared an anecdote about a parent or teacher who was alarmed by the arrival of a busload of Black kids. the black kids spilled off their bus and this women […]

aches and pains

i’m doing my best not to panic about my pending dental appointment but… now that i’m chewing on the left side i’m noticing sharp pains. makes me think there is decay somewhere else that has gone undetected. i’ve noticed that the nail bed on each big toe is split, horizontally about a quarter include across […]

where are the women?

as i watch project runway allstars i am struck by the fact that the three designers who mad it to the finals are male. then i look at the panel and there sits tommy hilfiger, Neiman Marcus fashion director Ken Downing, issac mizrahi. flashback to the regular runway show and it’s tim gunn and michael […]

maintenance costs

i don’t even know where to begin. preventive care is supposed to do just that. prevent shit from happening. things like:  taking your car in for regular oil changes, annual eye exams, well woman visits, dental cleanings.  i visit the dentist every six months, without fail. and i keep all my other health checks as […]