to the woman who cut me off on I-84 i say, STFD. to my aunt who likely hasn’t thought about me since she last saw me, then hears i’m in town and wants me to stop by i say, STFD. i have a cousin, let’s call him shadow. he slides in and out of the […]
we are to focused on self. we over extend our bank accounts buying shit we don’t need, can’t afford, or both, then go to church and fall down at the altar begging GOD to send us a financial blessing. we don’t or haven’t shared the faith that got us this far because we’re so caught […]
sigh. that’s what i’ve been doing for months, sighing. you can love your family but you can’t live their lives for them. in fact, i think we (i) have been in the way and my intervention is preventing members of my family from getting their shit together. i confess, i am an enabler. i get […]
while i don’t attend his church i am compelled to give to the campaign and “buy a seat.” i have been to this church many times, attending conferences, listening to podcasts, watching their streaming services and i am challenged and blessed every time. as christians we really do have to put our faith into action. […]
you know that machine that randomly selects lotto numbers after the host presses the button? the white balls are bouncing around and rattling in a round plexi-glass bowl. that’s me. my thoughts are banging around in my head like those white balls, the problem is, when i hit the button, several balls are sucked into […]
Sunday pastor talked about Paul’s thorn in the flesh. He said your thorn may be your family, an illness, financial. I left service thinking, what is my thorn. And true to form, I ruminated over it, hamsters running, wondering what is my thorn. Never did I stop and think, just ask God. So today. I […]
I dreamt that I went to granny’s house. it was fenced off and a guy was inside. He let me enter and it was a hodge podge of old and new furniture, fixtures. Flooring. Tears filled my eyes. The man stared. Over the lump in my throat I told him I hadn’t been inside the […]
oh to be a cabbage patch kid. i attended the women’s day program at church today and the speaker was making her debut. she encouraged us to strengthen and stand on our faith. but what spoke louder to me was her cousin who was seated in the front. i saw the women as they walked […]
friends, when i mess up and spend what seems like hours ranting to a colleague about someone else who messed up, i must fess up. what a morning. mini fires burning throughout the work forest and i am not smoky the bear. while i’m trying to address these issues, tonka calls me. we go on […]
consider this: babies sleep without any difficulty. once they are fed, burped, and changed they drift off for hours, until the next wave of feeding, burping, and changing. the infant doesn’t have enough sense of presence to worry, to think am i going to be held? will i be changed today? what will i eat? […]
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