i go to work like a docta

what is about men who want to be cared for by women? who are still suckling at the teat of their mothers as though they are 8 months old? there are two young men i know who don’t work. both are of age and have chosen NOT to go to work. the one watches his […]

STFD

to the woman who cut me off on I-84 i say, STFD. to my aunt who likely hasn’t thought about me since she last saw me, then hears i’m in town and wants me to stop by i say, STFD. i have a cousin, let’s call him shadow. he slides in and out of the […]

who cares about you?

we are to focused on self. we over extend our bank accounts buying shit we don’t need, can’t afford, or both, then go to church and fall down at the altar begging GOD to send us a financial blessing. we don’t or haven’t shared the faith that got us this far because we’re so caught […]

get it together

sigh. that’s what i’ve been doing for months, sighing. you can love your family but you can’t live their lives for them. in fact, i think we (i) have been in the way and my intervention is preventing members of my family from getting their shit together.  i confess, i am an enabler. i get […]

the sower and the reaper

while i don’t attend his church i am compelled to give to the campaign and “buy a seat.” i have been to this church many times, attending conferences, listening to podcasts, watching their streaming services and i am challenged and blessed every time. as christians we really do have to put our faith into action. […]

lottery balls

you know that machine that randomly selects lotto numbers after the host presses the button? the white balls are bouncing around and rattling in a round plexi-glass bowl. that’s me. my thoughts are banging around in my head like those white balls, the problem is, when i hit the button, several balls are sucked into […]

dream 5/19/13

I dreamt that I went to granny’s house. it was fenced off and a guy was inside. He let me enter and it was a hodge podge of old and new furniture, fixtures. Flooring. Tears filled my eyes. The man stared. Over the lump in my throat I told him I hadn’t been inside the […]

the ministry of presence

oh to be a cabbage patch kid. i attended the women’s day program at church today and the speaker was making her debut. she encouraged us to strengthen and stand on our faith. but what spoke louder to me was her cousin who was seated in the front. i saw the women as they walked […]

out of the mouths of babes

consider this: babies sleep without any difficulty. once they are fed, burped, and changed they drift off for hours, until the next wave of feeding, burping, and changing. the infant doesn’t have enough sense of presence to worry, to think am i going to be held? will i be changed today? what will i eat? […]

grievances

who stays at your place for 8 weeks and never once washed dishes, took out the trash or the recycling? who buys a new car, loads the trunk with stuff from their old car and says, oh, i can’t drive to the recycle center because my trunk is full. the day you drive to the […]