after telling my coach that agency life and consulting firms are not for me, i applied for a job with an entity that is both. i love the idea of what they do (mobile app development) and the list of brands for which they work. BUT. yes, a but sandwich. am i ready to give […]

i took a big step this weekend. i enrolled in a week-long writing workshop that starts this summer.  the only writing workshop i’ve taken was a creative writing class seven years ago. i learned about the structure of a novel but i didn’t have an outline.  i finally have an outline (actually 2) and i’m […]

so i’m at a party last night and i make what I think is an innocent remark about my chronic tardiness. a man i don’t know comments that i just mentioned that i arrive at work at 930 and i arrive at church at 1130.  30 minutes late for both. he smiles. a woman i’ve […]

For many years my family would have a huge flocked tree with beautifully wrapped gifts spilling out from under it. Lit up by our old chipped color wheel. The house was trimmed in red, blue and green lights, and the monstrous fir tree in the front yard was bedazzled as well. As we got older […]

i arrived at church at 1140, walked in, heard pastor say they were collecting offering and walked right out.  all the way there i was complaining about the leaders, the issues that i perceive, how they measure up to MOBC and i decided i’m way too late and i don’t want to bring this spirit […]

so i’m notoriously late. for just about everything. i’d say it’s because i’m apathetic about work, church, and dealing with certain folk. but the shit i want to do, that’s what i’m on time for. catching a plane, a movie, getting to the cleaners before they close…that’s the shit i care about. the rest of […]

Did you know that the at 630am the moon is still out?  A beautiful full moon. I agreed to pick-up the coffee for this morning’s fundraiser.  I at the office at 7am and no one else was here. I am NEVER early and today I was beyond early.  We were supposed to have things setup […]

back in the day sleep was my sweet escape.  i would drop off into dream land where everything was settled.  i had the right man, car, clothes, weight, job.  and now, i almost dread going to sleep.  climbing into an empty bed each night is one lonely feeling.  I’m not sure if it’s lonelier to […]

my eldest sister used to be ambitious, career-oriented, and social.  she graduated from high school almost a year early and moved out at 22.  no college degree needed, she rose up in her company and was a supervisor.  she wanted to be  radio dj and she launched her own r&b show. she had a great sense […]

within each person is the desire to achieve the best outcomes in life and reach our greatest potential.  we want to avoid pain and disappointment at any cost.  this desire is so strong it leads us to believe that our actions are pure as the driven snow.  desire is merely a euphemism for selfishness. selfishness […]